Saturday, February 14, 2009

A Year In Passing... and those who are now gone.

One year ago today was not one of the better days in my life. Though i have had a few days where i have lost those who meant something more to me than any word can describe, and life seems just a lil harder to bare for a while........ But that day last year was probably one of the worst i think i ever had to face, and i truly hope i never have to again in my life - nor anyone else for that matter.

Though sadly there are a few people out there that are in my dear friends of a circle who are going through a tough time in loss. i am there for them, as i have gone through something rather rough and tumble and know how they feel. It is one thing to lose that lil loved one of a "kid"/pet/budy/life, it is another to have that truly special one ripped away from you for reasons that just don't add up.

For those that i am dear and close to... including stevie's girlfriend's mom... hugs to you all. i feel your pain, and i am there for you. And for that i am going to post again what i posted last year, and it seemed to make me feel just that lil grain of sand better. i hope it brings a lil bright hope to you as well, and maybe some warmth in your heart.

Love, hugs, and BB to you

lil d



Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called the Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies, that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to the Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There are plenty of food, water, and sunshine. and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who have been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of the days and times gone by.

The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing - they each miss someone very special to them who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks up into the distance. His bright eyes are intent, his eager body begins to quiver.

Suddenly he begins to run from the group. Flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kissed rain upon your face, your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent in your heart.

Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together.............

Author unknown


Many thoughts come to mind in this time. Everything from anger, all the way down to depression and an emptiness or loneliness in most cases. But as I sit here reading over those very comforting words, that truly fit in any circumstance, I am reminded of many teachings. Listening to the Hindu and Budha way of thinking and living is that when one shows sorrow towards the departing, their souls stay with us and don't pass on to the next life. But I do also believe that it is us we who are most saddened by any one thing or person passing on, as it is us who have suffered the loss. The one who has passed on is in a greater place, and looking on us.... guiding us.

I have every right to be pissed though. This is no time to just say hay, poo happens. I'm sorry, there is no reason why all this should have happened and in such a short time in this way. Though I understand full well that getting angry isn't going to get me any where, and what am I going to get angry at. I know where I would like to direct it, and people and our environment and what we put in it and our food is a good start. But for now I am just going to 'be', and get through the next couple weeks. Try not to focus on what is not around any more, and the silence. 

This is a good time to find my music again.... don't ya think.

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