Looking Forward To Bugs In The Teeth

Crossing my lil fingers today that it doesn't rain toooo much on this fair lil area of Oours. In needing a lil meditation and something to take my mind off things, i'm off for a ride late today. Feel the wind in the hair, bugs in the teeth, vibration where it is needed;). Hopefully this will put a lil bit of a smile back on my face, as i think i lost it somewhere back there behind me. Still not quite feeling right either, and not sure how to back up there. Never had this before, not this hard and not by myself. There is one thing that has my brain wondering though........ Where is their lil stupid minds do men think that someone, even me, is going to meet them right off the bat out of one email that they have just sent me. With no info, no picture, no nothing. i don't know them from beans, nor anyone they know, and have nothing to go by. To top that all off, i am not even seeking a Dom in the first place - off the market so to speak...... which is quite clear in my profile. This didn't come in this site, but i tell you it really gets my goat some of these people and what they think some people will do. i wish some of these people would sit down and really think about what they are asking of other people out there, and then think if someone asked them that what they would do in their situation. i guess, as i have always said, it takes all kinds to make this world go around. But i am not going to be someone victim, and end up on the front page news even if it is for a java. pfffft. OOOOOOOOOOO. my first sunflower is in full bloom now. About time one of them came up, after having to do a re-plant with another 20 or so seeds this spring. Damn those sow bugs, and the rather poo ridden spring we had. It is a sad year in this yard for the sunflowers, but have i ever gotten my fill of blueberries. Yipeeeee. Almost have picked those bushes dry now, and going to go to my favorite abandoned blueberry farm next week and hope that those are starting to ripen. Looking forward to that trip, as it always is a good days adventure. Then go and find the native black berries, and who knows what is next. :D Well...... off to go do something or other around here. Then get ready for ride, i know it's going to be a great day.

What An Intriguing Profile i Passed By.

OMG!!!

So i am reading through a profile of a Dom. As i go on it rings very true, more true than some would admit. Of course the only reason i went there in the first place is because He peeped mine, and i thought 'why not' go have a boo. There were no promises made, things saying really the type or character (though that is nice to see), nothing that would normally draw me in and make me want to wonder about this person and find out more. Though i would not go for this Dom, i truly enjoyed what i read. So i am passing this on to whom ever would want to read this.... maybe it might turn Yyour crank. hehehehehe.

"You NEED to SERVE. Yes, serve. Not just "service" a Master, but truly serve him - his body, his heart, his spirit, his needs, his desires.

There is a huge difference between a girl who desires only to service the physical needs of a dominant man; and one who truly wants to totally SERVE a Master in all ways.

Your limits are few, if any. This Master subscribes to the idea: "A good Master respects limits... a great Master teaches to move those limits." Your desire is to have your limits acknowledged and respected, but with time and trust, you want those limits to be pushed, moved, and as is very often the case, to have them gone, so that you can so very completely serve him.

Nothing else makes you more happy, fulfilled and content than being owned by your Master, used by your Master, dominated by your Master. 

Your inner desires are to have your creativity, intellect, and submissive mind harnessed for the pleasure of your Master. Your humour, communication skills, imagination - all used to please your Master.

The thought that your body will be used in so many ways to fulfill the sexual desires of your Master makes your heart pound and your loins wet.

You crave to worship his cock and desire to learn more and more each day how to please him orally, for his cock will indeed need to be cared for often and often at a moments notice. In fact, cock worship is not just a desire of yours, but is indeed a need, a fetish, a requirement for your fulfillment. His entire body is something you look forward to pleasuring with your tongue, lips, hands. You long to taste his essence and drink from him. Yes, you even desire to fall asleep each night with his cock in your mouth as a soother, knowing it belongs to the One who makes you whole.

You are able to be a very feminine lady on his arm when he desires you to... or his sex toy, his maid, his pet, his plaything, his cumslut... whatever he desires, when he desires it.

You are preferably bi-sexual and the thought of being used with others subs/slaves on occasion is just fine with you. Your Master is a jealous Master and may decide to share you with other Dominants for exhibition only, or not at all.

Even if your Master's greatest desires are not yours, your willingness to fulfill his desires is what makes you happy.

You cannot wait to be on your knees before him awaiting his instructions, his wisdom, his explanation of what you are about to experience.

In fact, just kneeling before him - knowing you are owned, cherished and cared for by him - is something that you long for... indeed, require for your submissive soul to be fed, nourished, and fulfilled.

You are constantly thinking of ways to please your Master domestically, intellectually, sexually. You strive to anticipate his needs before he even asks.

A strict, firm Master is what you need. Protocol and ritual are part of your submissive yearnings.

You look forward to experiencing things you may never have tried before, confident in the fact that your Master will not push you beyond what you can bear, but will teach you to delve ever deeper into submission and into what you will do for him.

His desire is not to break you, but to use the talents and personality that you already have, and mold you into the sub/slave that you want to be while celebrating those personality traits that make you uniqe.

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R.O.T.A.T. will permeate your life. What is this?

Respect - your deep respect for him, and his respect for you as his submissive.

Obedience - your swift and unflinching obedience to his wishes.

Trust - trust in that you will commit yourself fully to him, and trust that he will care for your submissive soul.

Accountability - you will be accountable for anything you do that displeases your Master and know that discipline and punishment will be meted out swiftly; and that your Master too will hold himself accountable for the way he dominates you, teaches you, and cares for you.

Transparency - you will at all times be completely open with your thoughts and feelings, so that your Master will be able to properly care for you, use you, teach you, dominate you.

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Yes, you are a deep submissive, with slave tendencies... or you are in fact wanting to live the life of a consensual slave in your Master's domain.

You want to know that wherever you may be at whatever minute of the day, that you are owned by a Master who wants you to grow in your submission, give yourself over completely to him, teach you to live the life your inner spirit longs to live.

You desire to be at his feet - physically and figurately - at the ready to serve.

If all of these thoughts churn up emotions, sensations, and longings that come from deep inside, then you know what to do... talk with me. Let us find out if I am the One that you long to serve with body, mind, spirit. Let us find out if you are indeed the girl with the soul of a deep sub/slave that I will want to own, collar and dominate in a way that will fulfill us both.

If you truly want to be fully dominated by a Master with few or no limits, then talk to me.

Ask me any questions you desire. Tell me what you are feeling right now." 

All That Other Info

Someone sent me a most excellent article the other day when They noticed something about me. i was a lil shocked that They read through what i was going through, but also thankful too. They didn't say anything to me at all, They just were there for me, even though it was a couple days after the fact.... but they were there for me (i think it lasted a lil more than a day or two, but for one day i went through hell). When Yyou read this article Yyou will understand why and what happened, and maybe how to avoid this happening to you or one of Yours.

This is in < http://lolitadiva.wordpress.com/ > and all Yyou have to do is click on this link and go there. Yyou shouldn't have to have an account to read anything there, at least that is what they are saying in their lil regs.

Happy reading.

It is in Green for now, but will be in Black n Blue soon..... a few of my favorite colors. A couple of my favorite colors, and hopefully i find a lil better layout. Please leave comments, as anything will help. Hope Yyou enjoy the lil extras that are put out there.

Pervy Regards and Happy Kinky Reading

PS:

There is a Link in the column to the right at the top. Click on it, and it will take Yyou there right away.

Bingo on a bicycle seat?

*Posted on A*
Aug 1, 2008 5:05 am
Mood: mellow, 14 Views

To think......
Just a couple of days ago i was thinking of what lil pervy thing i could stick on my bicycle seat to go for a ride with. hehehehehe. And then it rains. Murphey's law.Though i can say the Munch on Wed was great. had some old, and a couple of newbies there. But most of all, it was great company in general. That is what counts......
Oh ya!!!! Music bingo helped. Picture this.... 12 pervs playing Music Bingo, and other tables from across the upper floor asking what the song was..... or column. lol. It was fun, and even someone from our table won a prize. Of course it was a flippin out-of-towner, but We won. Looking forward to the Brunch next month.& pervy toys on my bicycle seat.

Nummys

*posted in A*

Jul 21, 2008 10:58 pm
Mood: satisfied, 32 Views

i had a most delicious weekend.Not only was Saturday a most pleasurable pervy night. And thanks to al that i ran into that helped with that...everyone.*Y*?*{=}
Well.....i am completely Folked Up!!!!
i went and had such a tasty time on Sunday getting my folk on, and with only 2 hours sleep. i am still buzzin today.... all through my bio course. Can't wait till next year.Wooohooooo.
Spread the love and give peace a chance peeps.

How Funny Life Can Be

It's funny how life rolls along some times. Just when things seem to be going just right, life throws you a curve ball or two and it all goes haywire. Then you don't know which way is up, or which way to turn. The worst part could be if you don't really know what is all going on around you; and if you don't know that, you truly have some serious pondering to do. Where did this all begin, and where do you think you want this to go.... and best of all - where do you think or rather want this to end up.

Early last week footboy mysteriously turned up again after well over a year being MIA. This in a rather weird way put a bump in the road, but then made me ponder a few things as well. It also made me look back on a few things and take inventory on a few things in my life, but it also made me look back on a few things in my life that used to be. As this was all going on i was thinking to myself OMG, what is going on in my life right now.... where do i want to go? What do i need? Where do i really want things to go and where? Yes, a lot of thoughts ran through my head at once, and it was a mess at first. But to top that off with a lil cherry - i was also in the middle of going over the whole "where the heck were you footboy, and why the frig didn't you call or pass on a note?" Never make anyone worry like that, doesn't matter who it is, people do care. We are dealing with that now. That will be updated at a later date, when 'fb' has had time to reflect over things. But i am not sure if this is what i want now in my life at this time, not where i am going. i just jumped on this path in the last lil while, and i haven't even gotten a good stride on it yet... let alone part way down the walk. So i am slightly indifferent as to what i am going to do, and where this is going. But i am certain that i am going to pass on fb to someone, as i do think that would be best. Let him pay off his purgatory, and go from there.

For the rest of me now. i am still my lil 'ol me. Just not certain of the path, as for some reason it is getting rained on by something. i don't know if this rain is going to stop or not, but i do know for sure that i have to wonder if i want to get out that umbrella or not and dry off. And if i do that, i don't think i will ever put it away again. i am getting pretty tired of getting wet in the rain, it is getting a lil much. Especially when it ruins my hair, and everyone knows how much time i spend on my hair. So until i hear from the weather man that it is going to be a sunny day down the road soon, i am just going to stay inside and do things that i have put off for a while now. And i can only do that for so long, as this brain can rest only for a bit then it has to do something...... going to have to find something to do at some point. Especially if i am to keep any of my proverbial squashed mentality, and try to straighten out again. And if my hair does get wet like i think it is (but really pray and hope it doesn't), i am going to get a hair cut. That way i don't have to worry about drying it anymore.

Life has a funny way of throwing things at you when you think it is just going your way. Finally i think it is just right, and maybe i might actually have some happiness in my life. i do have happiness, just not where i would always like it. i have and always will be that person that is always annoyingly happy most of the time, but there is those time that i am off in another world wondering..... what if.

July Tri-City_Munch/Brunch ( July Brunch Cancelled )

Tri-City Brunch News:  

Sunday July 27th, 08    Cancelled.

 

Due to quite a few people going down to ITW, i have decided to cancel this months Sunday brunch. Not that i am stopping You from going for brunch if You wish at all, i am not reserving seating or will promise to be there myself. i do wish everyone a wonderful and kinky fun filled weekend, maybe all Your pervs be full filled.

Next month the Brunches will continue.

 

 

 

Tri-City Munch: Wednesday July 30th, 08    Still on.

*Every 5th Wed. of a month.

 

 

As i could talk about the Nummy food i won't. Though it will satisfy most tastes out there, from Dim Sum to Omelettes. And i know i drool over the desert area, and i am sure there are a few others in my position; as there are are quite a few choices. They have raised the prices by a buck or so due the gas thingy, i will check for You all. Still a great deal.

 

Hear is the Info:

 

Tri-City Sunday Brunch / Munch!
*Dates Above*
6:30 - 9:30pm (or so) Munches

11:30am-1:30pm (or so) Brunches
John B Pub
1000 Austin Ave. (@ Blue Mountain)
Coquitlam, BC.
***Again pls try to inform/email me so i can reserve tables for Us all.
 
Please email me here, or @
TriCityMunch@msn.com

Tri-City Brunch News:  Sunday July 27th, 08    Cancelled.

 

Due to quite a few people going down to ITW, i have decided to cancel this months Sunday brunch. Not that i am stopping You from going for brunch if You wish at all, i am not reserving seating or will promise to be there myself. i do wish everyone a wonderful and kinky fun filled weekend, maybe all Your pervs be full filled.

Next month the Brunches will continue.

 

 

 

Tri-City Munch: Wednesday July 30th, 08    Still on.

*Every 5th Wed. of a month.

 

 

As i could talk about the Nummy food i won't. Though it will satisfy most tastes out there, from Dim Sum to Omelettes. And i know i drool over the desert area, and i am sure there are a few others in my position; as there are are quite a few choices. They have raised the prices by a buck or so due the gas thingy, i will check for You all. Still a great deal.

 

Hear is the Info:

 

RSVP as soon as possible, thank You.

i'm All Folked Up!!!!!

i'm all Folked Up still.

Though i am finally coming down from my weekend high from all that i did. This can be a good thing, as i was getting just a wee bit tired by the time yesterday evening rolled around. Though it was all worth it in the end, no matter who one feels. i may be still a lil tired (even though i couldn't sleep in today if my life depended on it), my body feels all the dancing that i did at the Festival (and it really isn't all that sore, it's just there from the DDD), i still want to just rock on and keep on dancing (i just can't stop dancing in a weird lil way, not sure why), and i have all these great songs stuck in my head from Michael Franti and Spearhead (whom i haven't heard in a while They used to play the van scene all the time, and were here last in 2003), talk about having a blast dancing and singing to them and not stopping for at least an hour near the end of the night..... wicked). Of course that was right after Beautiful Soul on another stage (before the main stage events) and Dubblestandart, and now that i think is what got all of us there going. Everyone was jumping and dancing and having such a great time, you could feel the vibe in the air. Their sax player could pull notes and play like i haven't heard in years, i almost peed my pants it was so good (i'm not kidding, cummin all the way damn near). The Reggae Hip hop Rockand Jamaican style all mixed up was wicked, but the only way i could best describe it was..... smooth - Juicy!!!!!! With that sax, juicy. Then we all (the rest of the crowd that was there of course, and there were a few hundred of us, if not a thousand by then) went to the main stage for the main events to end our eve, and we rocked with them and others... just wicked and tasty as well.

This year was even better than last year. That is hard to say, but it is the truth. Don't get me wrong, i truly enjoyed last year yes i did. But i walked away this year high on a kite, and i didn't need ganja for this one (but it certainly was a bonus). i love the Fest, i love the people there, there are many people there i know and can't wait to run into when i get there....people i haven't seen in years. But what i love most of all, besides the music, is the atmosphere. Not only can you just be and walk around being all peaceful with everyone, you don't have to worry about anyone there. Everyone trusts everyone, and everyone loves everyone (in the non biblical sense i mind you). We all enjoy each others company, we dance with each other, and we hang and eat with each other, we talk we sing, we jam, and we just have a great time being with each other. Taking the time not to worry about what is going on outside of that space, but wishing our friends and family that couldn't be there were with us. There is nothing like it, Folkin is one of the best things for the soul. It gives one hope, but it also replenishes. In more ways than one. So Spread the love, and please give peace a chance...... we could use a lil.

i can't wait till next year. i'll be Folded Up again!!!!!

ps. 

a few pics to come soon.

my safety zone - A Need. A Craving. Being.

All i could think about today after i finished my pre-M-Bio course today..... all i could think about was laying at His feet.

i had an urge to lay at Sir's feet. There is a need for certain things in me, and this is one of them. i had chatted with Him this morning on IM, and i realized how much i missed Him this whole weekend into today. i had a most joyous weekend which was not only pervy, but tasty as well; and He wasn't there to share it with me. Not saying i didn't have fun with the girls yesterday, as i always do at the Festival... every year. i dance my lil heart out, and just get Folked. The only way to be, and just be at peace with others being at peace and sharing the love in a neighborly way. Nothing like it around, which is the problem... that is another story.

So as my afternoon went on all i could think about and visualize was laying at Sir's feet. Even having my head laying on the sofa by Him, being in my comfort zone really. With His hand on my head if it may be, but just there knowing with Him there above me and being safe within His world. i feel so safe with Him; never having to wonder what he is going to do next, wondering if He is going to hurt me in any way, knowing that when i am with Him.... that when i turn around or wake up - He is near by. When i was over in His house last, i sat at His feet in the morning when He was at His computer dealing with the photos that He had taken over the last couple of days. This being when i had woken up, and i am sure He was at the puter for a lil while before i got there, but i was at His feet for a short time. It was nice, and just being. But not quite what i am feeling today, even though some may think it is the same thing. It is, but it isn't. 

Sitting at Sir's feet for a short time while he is just doing a short bit of work is one thing. At that time W/we were only going to be there for a lil while, knowing W/we had to go shortly to get me to the station and He to somewhere else after. It wasn't a situation where knowingly there was no place to rush to and be at at a certain time, or worry about anything coming up. i am thinking of a time when just sitting around while relaxing while there is no pressure to do anything, just being. And i can be there, just being 'His' in my safety zone. It is in a way like me having a figurative safety blanky, a comfort zone, a safe spot to be. If not sitting at His feet with my head on the sofa by Him, laying on the floor right beneath Him. This is not something i would do all the time, just because it is not feasible. Nor is that what i want, and i don't think that is what He wants. i don't need to be at His feet all the time, it is just nice and comforting every once and a while. And with how things have gone in the last couple of weeks, with how He has dealt with me in His Topping way - i have an urge, need, want, desire for what some would say. 

Yesterday the 'jrk' phoned me out of the blue while i was at the Festival. The first thing he said what that it looked like i was sad at the party on Saturday, that the usual joy and happiness that naturally follows me wasn't there by the looks of it. i found that rather strange that that is what he saw, as i was in a most wonderful mood and didn't feel sad at all. Though maybe it would have been nice to have a certain Someone else with me, but i was in a great mood and having a good time. Then he asked if he had ever given me a discount ticket for Rascals, and i said no. Well, he was shocked... i wasn't as he passed through 'my' door to give 'you know who's upstairs last year tickets, even told me what he was doing, then left out "my" door to leave. i thought, what ever. So he has one ticket left over and wants to give it to me, i was fine with that. Sure.

So today as i was coming home after (omg- foot boy found me after his hiatus on being on the injury list - this i will talk about in a later post) i got to pondering about why he may have thought this. i had been deep in thought and wanton about being at Sir's feet, and then it jumped into my thoughts that maybe that is what jrk read off of me not knowing what it was. Not sure how he read that, as he isn't really that good of a Dom to read something like that. 

As i sub-consciously maybe emitted this out. Not knowing what was really going on in my head, this all going on as i was watching all these wonderful subs/slaves with their Masters and Mistress's just being. But not realizing as i was having my absolute fun, this is where that thought truly started and not today - it just surfaced today is all. i had been talking to M Eve about Sir, and all that had been going on and how happy i was. Maybe that is when it crept in while i was talking to her and devil bear after all Their play and spankins, and he getting a kollar finally. i was so pleased for him, and new it was all good for Them from here on in. But then all i wanted to do was just be with Sir, and be safe with Him... safe under Him. But it not coming up in my full thoughts until today, when i actually was finally calming down from everything - from the weekends festivities, for my mind finally clearing a bit for a few different thoughts to open up in there and surface. 

Sir said He was going to call me tonight. If He doesn't i know He is tired and/'or unavailable, that is ok. but i do look forward to hearing His voice, as that is what sometimes can keep one grounded as well. In more ways than one. i am very much looking forward to next week when i get to see Him again, when hopefully i can lay under Him - or even have my head on the sofa by Him with His hand on it... making me feel safe again. Letting me know who i am, why i am there, and who i belong to. Just being me. His wench, His toy, His .......