Hmmmmm, Should i, or should it just be.

On Monday this past week i was fully prepared to come home after my day and completely barf in my blog(s). i had one of those days that just got to me, everything that has been going on in my life for the last 7 years has just piled on way too much by that day. Thinking just when i was having a great time so far this year, needle play and all.... then the hammer hit. Though there was a 10% positive in it, it was still overshadowed. i thought to myself i would let the week go by and see how i feel from here. So i have, and i think i am still going to ponder on all of this yet. i have read a few blogs on some wonderful friends of mine, and how they chat openly of how what may be happening in their lives health wise can be affecting them and those around them. It is a good read yes, and sometimes extremely positive in its own rite. But then there are those times i just want to hug that person and cry, as i can feel that pain and the healer in me just wants to make all that disapear. With all this thinking going on in my lil head, it makes me wonder if i should spill how i feel and what all is going on with me. Maybe some people would understand what is going on, why i am not always "out" there, why i may not feel all that well all the time, why i am not always my happy-go-lucky self as much these days, and maybe just so tired all the darn time. Would it solve how people react around me, or would it make things worse off. Would it stop all the questions, or would they ask more. Or would there be pitty, something i really do not want. Just understanding...... and maybe that surgery that i have needed for so long that has helped with all those other complications that make my life wonderful.

Now don't get me wrong.... i love my life. i love who i am, and who i have become over the years. And i am truly loving who am becoming, and i look forward to that wonderful road ahead.... i actually can't wait to see where i am going from here - health aside from it all. As all that poo is a moot point in most of my living being really, i can look beyond most of it and just be me. It is just those days that i have a bad day now and then, and just don't feel like being me. lol. Funny though, as i am typing this i am smiling. It is ironic all that i have learned over these past 7 years, and what i will learn. All of this i can pass on to someone else, and maybe hopefully more than just one. As with my life i can take what i am going through and turn it into a kinky life, and also how to live with it in that kinky life... how to deal with certain situations and just maybe how to get past some situations. And if not, how to cry through it all and then get up and put a smile on that face and move on to the next day.
i am one of those people that dances like no one is watching. Live life like this may be your last day. And by all means.... look at your friends around you, as those are your family as well... not just blood. Treat everyone as you want to be treated, it all comes back on you.... even those lil creatures in the trees.

So after a few days of frustrating times with bad corks doing wine..... i am now going to take a long breath, then a hot shower. Eat some icecream... not only for comfort, but to keep the face down from swelling as i do have a migraine now. grrr. But i am still smiling, as i am alive and have many friends that i can call my family. Then i am going to meditate off to sleep into my dream land, to which most people could not even fathom.i look forward to tomorrow. Sushi dinner with people i adore and love, and discuss some wonderful things to come. And just maybe, it will be just as sunny as it was today around my house. Oh yes.... hug my poor lil roomy that has a migraine as well... poor thing. She looks so cute in pink jammies. shhh i didn't say that out loud.
Nite all.BB

Cont... What a Happy New Years Indeed 2009

.........So it seems that the lil birdies have followed me to my new home. Strange, but true. i was at the old place yesterday, and there is not a bird around... not ever a track. But there were over 10 of the lil guys in the tree just outside of my back deck off the kitchen, and that i find rather interesting and warming. So do i not only have the one lil guy knocking at my front door, they know how to find me in the house as well. Rather cute..... but wondering if i should be disturbed. hmmmmm. Alfred Hitchcock comes to mind here, but with smaller dudes. lol. So when out shopping yesterday for a few things for myself and the house.... and a dear friend here... i picked up a lil feeder and some food. They didn't have the food i would normally get (grrrrr), but i picked up some finch food which will suffice for now until i can find the truly good stuff they love. It has cracked corn and sunflower seeds in it, not just the lil wee stuff in it. Then i spent a good half hour setting up the lil feeder and making sure if will withstand a good mighty wind here, and filled it almost to the brim. So my next task is to finally get out there and shovel off that lil back deck (and the lift for Zepher) in the rain, and get the feeder up. They tore through the bread crumbs and tiny corn crumbs i put our yesterday just on the ledge, so i imagine they will get through this batch fairly fast. Hungry lil guys, with no food source out there.

To top off yesterdays events..... earlier in the day i finally seen the coyote that has been roaming around the neighborhood and making tracks even in my yard. i know for a fact he is having problems finding food around here, but at least he doesn't look mange yet... that is slightly comforting. i am not about to feed him, that would involve finding mice..... i like those lil guys way too much for that task. i love all those lil creatures out there, even the coyotes, but sheesh.... i will go only so far. Maybe he will find a squirrel or two before i plant for the summer season, and my sunflowers come into bloom. Ok, not that i am wishing harm.... but it is nature - and i have to think of my nuts and seeds too. blush

Yes it is a new year......... Now if i can only find someone to get rid of this snow and the tree barf i still have around here....... any volunteers?

What a very Happy New Years indeed...... (from Fetlife Jan.2,2009)

Jan. 2, 2009

To start off this most pleasurable 2009........

More poky things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The most beautiful corset i could ever have received for a prezzie. OMGoodness. And NUMMY! 24 perfect poky things, to hold together a sweet red elastic red ribbon.........just the way to ring in a new year. Send out the old, to which in some ways to a few i know was not always the best, including myself (as losing a dear one to my own heart).... though it also had some very wonderful times as well - some i will carry with me for the rest of my life and the people who took me there and/or shared those with me. Of course after the attachment of the corset about an hour later (not sure of the time.. a lil floaty) Wwe played. Canes of course. lol. No part left off course, and yes those lil poky things got er too. Pure bliss by the end of it all, and i am still smiling. Can't wait to show the pics.

i think i am good for a bit. It's like a fine choco....... have a really delightful one that melts in your mouth just that way, and all the rest pail in comparison for a while after. i do believe this is going to be it for the time being, and that is just fine with me. Thank You Lord Braven for such a Nummy Prezzie! Muah! So i am typing now, while this is all still hot in my lil head and i am just right..... and then off to dream land i will go. Tomorrow i will finish this lil account of all that has happened over the last lil while into this past 24 hours, and post it in my blog. And i think that will be the end to my 2008 year of "stuff".

Til then.......

Happy New Year to Aall of Yyou that have made my life so abound with life and beauty. Full of perviness in so many ways; either personally, or just being Yyou around me - Thank Yyou. Happy Yule to Eeveryone out there.... may the year bring exciting and great things to Yyou all around.

There are so many people i would love to mention that have made this last year just purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect and perfectly pervy for me... i really wouldn't know where to start...but there are a few i can not miss. And if i didn't mention Yyou in name, that doesn't mean i don't appreciate Yyou for all that Yyou have done or been..... it is just that i have such a long list in my head.... and i am still not quite on the ground from earlier either. Give me a few days, and i am sure i will get to Yyou at some point. but huggers and smooches.... wgem... thanx for being you and so generous with all that you do for everyone out there. you rock!!!! JohnBaku... thanx for starting this great lil comunity..... You rock and You know it!!! i have said that to You before, and will always say it again. Huugers to You and Your girl, and Happy New Years. s.h. ..... or rather mr. h. ...... double thanx for just being you and for being there when i needed you the most. Not only are you a great friend, you are a great gf, ff, bf, df (when i really need that one - and gawd are you good at that! it's all in the eyes), and even a mf when i feel a lil sadistic on that rare bmoon occasion. Yes it is a time for you now, but it will get better..... i know this. See you on the flip side..... and don't forget the sushi and saki and maybe some vino and a movie for a cuddle, just because that's what friends do. J.W. aka BM ...... Thank You for those wonderful times this past summer. Very needed, yes...... especially after that non-stop party trip i took. Something i will never forget, and i am sure will never be matched. The sun, the surf, the fire.............the memories will always be there. Thank you L.T. you have always been a great friend. No matter how many hickies between the tits i can give to you in public through the years, and how many times that story gets told... you still love me for it. "grins". Not a Dom... er days goes by that i don't have a fond memory of you when i look back to when Wwe were finally formally introduced instead of the "hello's" in passing or online chit, and just knowing who Wwe each were..... and how you were so there for me this last year when my closest friend passed on me. Between you and indi, i don't know who held me up more. Hugs and tons of lovies. You rock!!!!! indi..... though i know you won't be in here to read this.... you fucking rock sis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have been there for me in so many ways, i can't even count. And now even my best friends girl friend has now gone to join him in "summerland", and in the same year.... i don't know how i can even begin to be there for you as you were there for me in the same situation, and hug you just as hard and hold you up. A crappy start to a year, to end in such a crappy way. sucks. Those lil souls went in two different ways, but it never seems to change the hurt. Happy-go-lil-buggers they were...... Here is to them! But most of all... here is to you... my best friend!

k. on that note. i am going to sign off. Get my happy back before i crawl off to sleep, maybe have a glass of vino or something.... boo at some pics. Who knows. Remember all those other people that made my year here and there..... grab a tissue first.

Huggers to Yyou all. Happy New Years! Happy Yule!!!!! Luv ya!

ps....

my roomies..... up and down... Thank Yyou!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not only have Yyou made this move fun, but worth it. i love my house, though yes it does have a quirk or two, but i am glad i went for this one and said yes to it. Tree barf and all. i am sure i will get over the tree barf over the years, and even the snow plows not liking me. And once i finish fixing it up a lil more, i will love it even more. But i do love Yyou all, and that is what matters. Thank Yyou all for moving in this lil place with me. Huggers to Yyou especially for this.

Poky Things from Santa, and tree barf for the coal. (from Fetlife)

Dec 27, 2008

Finally got my poky things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am a happy girl finally. i am going to keep this short, and very sweet as i can... with a sour note on the end. Yes i did get my poky things, and i got them good. With the VW added to the mix, and making me jump a few times...... don't need to do any sit-ups for a few days to work off that choco that i ate making the ginger bread house during the snowed in day. lol. shhhhh.

But sadly after coming home from a most pleasurable couple of days...... i have not only a ton of more snow to deal with, and getting plowed in for the umpteenth time..... i have tree barf not only on the side of the house, on the deck, on the shed (to which needs a new roof..grrr), and on the other side of the house (which is not in a danger zone). All this has to be removed asap, and no one here to do it. The tree dude was to show up today, and his car was stuck. i re-arranged my day for him, and he is a no show. Frig me, so now i have tomorrow to deal with this. And on top of that, stormy weather again on the way. pfffft. Needing two trees down for sure. Knew that months ago, but couldn't do anything about it at that time. Thought i could get away with a few branches after the holidays. Boy was i wrong. lol

poor critters that use those trees. i feel for them. oh ya.... i almost forgot. i think a bird followed me from the old house. Not kidding. i have birdie tracks at my front door, and no where else in this whole yard. It was like he was knocking on my door, and wanting food that i haven't put out for him in the old yard. Crazy dude. Need a feeder now as well, never ends in that part. lol. Silly bird, knocking is for people.

Happy Yule. Happy New Years (if one celebrates that)

See everyone soon i hope..... poo on me missing that big party.... had to shovel snow off the deck, and deal with tree barf. grrrrrrrrr. i am going to go so wild at the next one, they will tie me down and not let me play. :|

Too busy for poky things.... i think not!

i actually have a lil bit of time to myself today to just be. WOW.
ok... so it isn't a whole lot of time. Just a few minutes that is, but it is time. Peeling my eyes from reading a ton of gov info pages this morning, as i fell asleep reading it as well. Tired lil eyes. Going to go and meet a friend to pick up puter parts for roomy, maybe grab a java i haven't had for a couple of days....

And since my body now hurts from shoveling all night (or at least it felt like that) and maybe get in a lil bit of rest and relaxation today... though i doubt i will. Have to de-gas the vino at some point, and should get to that today as well (that will take a couple days, and will be going back and forth to do that..grrr).
And now all i truly want to do is spend some well needed time with friends i haven't had the time to with lately. Missin them all, greatly. Been extremely too busy with the move, and now winterizing the house and getting everything fixed (which all is not done). And still searching for poky things, to which i now think is a total myth. lol. Someone lied to me out there, i just know it.... and what ever i did as a young youth and adult was imagined. Must have been the lsd or something, who knows... but it wasn't real....... cause i certainly haven't seen any poky things yet. And i have searched, high and low... and non to be found. Thought i had seen some last week, even one... but couldn't catch it in time. Sadly, it was gone before i could get the trap out. Poof! Next thing i knew the girl had her shirt on, and all "alleged" poky things were going down the stairs in a box. *pout*. *sigh*. Oh well. Till we meet again poky things.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i did get a new toy::D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Grins. hehehehehe.
Going to have to have a naming contest. i am not sure what to call this one, as it is just sooooooooooooooooooooo pretty. Now just to break it in, hehehehehehhe. Goes well with those wonderful lil palm floggers i made a few months back, though two totally different devices. But what a pair if incorporated in the same session, or even just one.... hehehehe. Ok, i better get my mind off my new toy.

Well, off to the shower to get soapy clean. Not my usual time, no. But i am. And then off to get electronics, and a java.... maybe with coco. hmmmm. another busy day for moi today. Never stops these days. i am looking forward to not doing a thing for a whole day, and it not being controlled by a migraine for that to happen. Hmmmmm, Sunday and drunken decorating at a friends... oh wait, that is doing something isn't it.
Wonder if i can get poky things before the licker oooops booze comes in play............

Lovely Snow and Winter Time Perviness?

Winterizing the yard and house...... oh what joy so go tell it on the mountain.

Well thank gawd the composter is here now. Just as i finnish the old yard last week, the ikky snow showed it's beautiful face and befelled a could inches on us. To which though quickly disappeared within the rain that followed, and didn't go away for a while. Then as we get out nice lil dusting of dry stuff, which is extremely more welcoming that the last example we had, i managed to get the compoaster in it's wonderful lil spot right on that first layer of pretty snow. Finally somewhere to make my wonder garden food. woo hoo. Now just have to find the time to finish the trimming and racking, but the driveway is so done. And the rest of the house is coming along finally as well, slow but true.

Now if i could finnish unpacking!!! And find the rest of my dishes, that would be a true blessing in disguise. Think i can follow that yellow brick road, just need that friggen flying carpet to go with it.

Pervy times will be here again.

Poky things.... wondering where those poky things are. *sigh*.

So i managed not to get surgery on my poor lil grey eye. Tis a good thing in one way, then not so great in another. i will reserve my opinion in a few more months when it heals, or up to six as the specialist said. It is not like i need to see properly, nor do i have to worry when i need to re-do the lens' due to a change now. And i can wear my aquas when i need to in the pool......... with numerous drops to take it out.......

So off to the pool finally tomorrow. Rather tired of the weight i put on during this move, and not getting out for walks and the pool all the time as i was. Grrrrrr. i certainly need to get back in my routine, though my walking is going to be different... not sure how i am going to work that one out.

Now only if i could work in those poky things...... hehehehehehe.

i am torn in something.... i am not sure what to do. In one end there is something missing, and i know i deserve more..... i am worth more. But i also have to think of the other end as well.

What will it take to fix this? How long? Is there a right way?

i hope i have the answers soon..... i don't have much time... and this does affect my perfectly pervy life.

Life has a funny way. As my world turns...... soon to tell...

Move-In With lil d's New Toy

Well is has been a while since being in here. Far to long as some would say, and just been time as others. Wwe all have our lives to live, and some times things take us away from the net and writings that are a lil less important than others. Though there have been many a change since i was last in here typing away, quite a few changes…. i hope i can get them all in in one shot without forgetting and having to cum back and add more later. Though i am sure i will, and that always just adds for more juicy info to read on.

i have moved into my own home!!!!! OMG what a wonderful thing to have happened, and life change. Yes, i have my own place. Though i do have a couple of wonderful roomies with me, this is still me own lil wonderland to live and call my own. It has been far too long that i could call a home my own, let alone have my name on it as well. It is a wonderful, healthy happy lil (big) home. That suites not only myself, but the others that are here with me. And to my surprise, the house that was built into the lower floor is perfect for the person that moved in down there. No it is not a suite, it is a house. Rather gorgeous if you ask me, better at most points then the upper….. but i still like what i have here.
It came with built in lifts for the one main roomy to which this main move was done for. Though i had planned on moving at some point as it was, i was searching just not finding something yet for just me. Not only does it have the lifts, it is set up in many ways for her so she can manage around this home without distress. i found the perfect home for a person with challenges to every day life, though normal in many ways she is. i am privileged to have her here, as she is such a bright spirit to have around… very much like myself… maybe sometimes too much. But i do believe that is why we get along so well, we are much alike.
And the other roomy is a perfect balance for us both. she is great to have around when she is here, and I can’t wait to spend more time with her and have some great times around the house here. she is such a great person, and so caring in many ways… that I know everything is just going to be so wonderful here…. i look forward to a long happy time here. she is so full of light, but yet calming. Just what the doctor ordered.

i am looking forward to my long life here. Never moving again, here to stay.

Now that I am here…… the move was taxing. Stressful, and i even managed to hurt my eye in the process some how. Not even the eye surgeons could figure it out, so off to the specialist 3 weeks later i went. i have a scare on my beautiful grey eye, and i am not happy about it. i have missed out on more pervy parties than i can count, and i haven’t even gotten any real action over all this either. Moving sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But on a good note………. my new toy arrived today!!!!!!!!!!!
Woo Hoo! And is he/she ever beautiful. All shiny and smooth, yet bumpy with a lil color as well. Clear, and just ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i can’t wait to find the perfect time to break this one in, not sure when, but can’t wait. Been waiting for this one for a while now, now just need the perfect opportunity. HEHEHEHEHEHEHe. *Rubs hands together* i am such a perv. All it needs now is a name…….. i wonder if i should hold a “naming contest”, or just name it myself. Of course if I do the contest, what would i give the winner/weener? That i guess would depend on if it was a Top or a bottom, and exactly what they could get away with….. or should it just be a direct across the board prize. Hmmmm, makes one think.

Well now that it is way past this lil ms’s bed time…. I should hit the shower, and then the bed. Get the well deserved rest, as one does have to get up in the morning for meetings before the day gets away from us… and then there is the Fraser Valley Munch in the eve to attend as well. Last one of the year – 2008!!!!

Nite all.. and the sweetest of wickedly pervy dreams………..

Does Aanyone Do Windows? Or have a Truck....

i have come to the conclussion how much i truly hate moving. Yes it is the most stressful thing one person can do to their bodies... this has been proven in the medical world. But it is all the other lil stuff that goes around it, including the cleaning... and i will not go into how to pick up the belongings and furniture...Does anyone out there have a truck to pick up a hand made bed for me????????

What i could use, now that i said bye bye to my footboy due to his rather bad tasting "memememememememe" attitude, is someone that doesn't mind doing windows. lol. Yes, windows. There are a few windows to get washed in the new place, most in the celarium, that need to get washed in and out. And i have not had the time to get to them, let alone certain other things that need to get done.......... grrr. Most people say that they don't do windows, i do on normal basis. i just don't have the time, as i am having a rather hard time trying to keep up with anything else. Packing is the worst with all the running around i am having to do, back and forth and all over the place.... and conferences (and i just put one right off this past weekend - bad me, but needed to). The next one, i can not get away with that... and that is the whole first week of Nov, and boy am i going to be tired after all that. Needs my bed before then. lol.

Yup, am i glad this is my last move. Though i will still be going back and forth to Was., have a home in the Cascades at my pa's. But this is it for here, unless i win the lottery and get that nice home on the riviera and in the Baha. woo hoo, surf for breaky. omg that would be the life.
Well off to try and get some more boxes, run around, and numerous other poo i have to get done. Never enough time in the day for moi, and i need more hands that what i have. Medical steps in a few hundred years i think.

Huggers to those who aren't moving.....




*** i just realised... i should probably change my profile in here as well. Completely forgetting with all that is going on in my life, and how busy it has been. WOW. i will get to that in the next lil while, so please bare with me peeps. Yes it still describes whom i am, and the type of person i am... but NO i am not seeking a Dom... and a few other changes are going in there.
i am going to go re-unite with poky things very soon!!! woo hoo. yipeeee. omg. yes!
If it isn't piercings, and yes i am going to get a couple.... and if i don't get anything else, Elwood is going to have way to much fun with me doing more. i am also going to meet up with an old friend - needle play. Been craving that for far too long these past several weeks, and i can't wait any longer. i think it all has to do with regression, and healing me. As some people know what is going on, and that i need some major healing to do.... and i am going to go back to the begining - needle play (yes i did more than that when i was a kid, fire/wax/and a few other things before i hit 10, but the needles are what gave me life).
So poky things here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*phone*
Just got off the phone with Elwood... hehehehehehehehe. Ooooooooooh ya. Nummy. Am i ever looking forward to when i see Him, what a treat that will be. Yuppers.
Wwe also had a lil chat about what was said to me yesterday at the Tri-City Brunch:
Someone had mentioned that there might be a bottom out there that just might be a harder player than i am, and can take more pain.... well Elwood piped up - saying that there should be an event to judge that one. With different events, and judges, and who wins wins. And there would even be a wild card event as well, and i am completely with what He is thinking. hahahahahaha. i think Elwood knows me all too well. hmmmm.
Off to day dream about pokey things.......

What is Mensa Sex? Where did those leathers go?

So i am finally sitting here taking a bit of a break for the day. Something that is well needed, and rather a lil late in the whole week to two weeks going on. Drinking a hot toddy with drunken honey, with lemon tea and drunken honey. Trying very hard not to cough, and feeling how tired i really am........ ok so i ran myself down. Not a good thing, and i will probably get a lil shit from the doc when i see him. And i hope this cold goes away faster then they usually do, as i have way too much to do - with lil help and lil time, and still trying to figure out how to get all the cleaning done when the contractors are done at the new place and over here. Phew. i packed my riding leathers on a sunny day on Saturday.:(( i just hope if i get a call for a ride, i can get them out fast enough. And to top it off - my sister from another twister was having all that fun at the Toy Run in Rupert without me, as i would normally be there helping out every year when i lived there. Made me realize how much i miss that home, especially since a brother just died a month ago. When one loses family such like that, it makes you think about what life was like and what you want out of it.... where will it go. Wishing i was was there to be with his wife, as i know she could use the people around her. They were always there for me, even when running the 1/4 mile in Kitamat.... wish i could be there for her now. Now i really have to think about that road trip, or ferry trip... what ever works best as long as it isn't flying on a plane. :-/Now i am sitting here waiting for chicken dinner with veggies to be done. So i was scrolling through my main home page, and thought i would go and see for a change who was pervin my profile. And one of the Doms that had been there a couple weeks ago had a tag line that rather caught my eye, and then had me thinking just a lil too hard for my brain today....... "Mensa Sex- Into pushing the edge and exploring most fantasies and fetishes." My question is: What the heck is Mensa Sex? Now a mensa can be two things. Either an "Altar Slab/Stone" that has to do with the astronomy of the southern constellation near Octans. Or...... of course as most people would know the most widely know definition, an international fellowship organization for people with IQ's in the top 2 percent of the general population. Now this has got me scratching my lil head here. i can think of a few things done on an altar stone, things i have done myself... shhhhh. But i have not come up with an idea of what an IQ driven human can do with sex, unless they use their smarts to make someone cum. Knowing a few select nerds myself that come up to that category, and maybe in Mensa, i don't think that sex really is something that they equate to a study they would want to conquer. Not unless that is a major, and it will get them further than any other subject. The science of it, or even the equation of how this leg goes that way, and your hand can do this at this angle while your tongue does this... all the while the cum comes at a ratio to the thrust of the source that is equivalent to X+YYx2(68+1)=100xyz. Sorry that just had to be done. And if someone can cum up with the answer to that, have i got a special bonus for Yyou.=D% If anyone out there has this answer for me..... please help me out. Even my lil brain can not cum up with the pervy thought on this one, and why someone would bring Mensa into sex in the first place........ hmmmmm. Back to my cold killing tea. Chicken healthy dinner. Packing and cleaning. Yipeeee..... not.